I am sorry for texting you rudely that day. I am going through a really difficult phase (clinical depression) and I had to take a major life decision. I could not control my emotions and start behaving rudely with everyone. I am not in a state of any human interaction and thus, took a long time to say this. I really don’t want you or anyone else who matters to me thinks it the other way. I don’t want to lose a friend just because of my stupid panic attacks and depression (Couldn’t say this person while shedding tears, so have to tell it here). I wish I could turn the time back and undo all of this but it’s not possible.
And if you think that this depression can’t control my emotions – let me tell you it’s pretty serious. I was going through a therapy session a year back for the depression. I was fine back then but now the harrowing images are back and it’s worse than ever. Every time I close my eyes, I see a bright flashing and a crash. That’s it. I am done for the night. This is the straight seventh night without any sleep. Oops! Why even I am saying this. Probably it won’t matter to you. (P.S- This isn’t any pulp fiction. It’s life!)
Sorry again! Have a lovely Christmas and a better new year! 🙂
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